Raving Mad

I just..... I can't stand it. I freakin can't stand it. What, you may ask? Heh.... how bout.... ugh.....

Screw it.

Freakin screw it. I'm sooo tired of all this crap. Won't they just SHUT UP?!?!?! And ya know.... I HATE it when people take EVERYTHING personally. I freakin hate it. I can't stand being around people like that. I mean... FREAKIN get a clue. HOW SELF INVOLVED DO YOU HAVE TO BE?!?!?!?

GRRRRR.... heh..... I sound like a freakin moron.

It's funny to think this day started out so great.

And ya know.... I'm sick of people saying that I'm not crazy.... cause I am. Simple as that. I've accepted it. Why can't they? I am. I lose sight of reality quite often... I think that's insanity, don't you? *cynical grin*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need to scream, but no, I can't scream, cause I'm peaceful Shelly, YEAH that's who I am, that's FREAKIN WHAT THEY MADE ME INTO. he he he he..... hooo.... HOORAY!!! I'm the good one. Remember? I'm the good one. I'm the quiet one that doesn't make any trouble. Troubles bad, but I'm not bad, I'm good, I'm good, I'm freakin evil.

heh.... yup.... yup.... pretty screwed up today..... pretty screwed..... up, that is..... heh...... even my humor sucks.

So...... I suppose I'll shut up, huh? Cause that's what they want me to do. No talk about problems... cause there aren't any, right? There aren't any problems, everything is perfect. Ha. Even I can see that there are problems. So screw it.



Just.... screw it.

I'm Awesome!!!

He he... I just wanted to state that I haven't even missed ONE dose of meds since they were prescribed. GO ME!!!!

Absolutely beautiful. And I'm starting to get a control over some of my obsessive thoughts. So... at the moment at least.... I ROCK!!!!

Hooray!!!!

Nothin like wakin up with a migraine!

Lol.... but the best part is that my hands are like... natural ice packs..... cause of crappy circulation, so whenever I need an extra bit, I just pause and put my hand on my head where it hurts. I hate tension migraines so much. Heck yeah!!!!

I can touch my tounsils. My mom was stunned by that one... lol..... like, it takes a lot of will power to do it without gagging.... but I can actually rub my tounsils with my finger without gagging. Well, ya see.... there's this white spot on my tounsils.... so I thought.... I wanna touch it and see what happens.... so I rubbed it and a little came off...... only, it won't all come off.... so I'm wondering what's up with my tonsils. I wish I could just get them removed. They just get in the way... I've got freakin huge tonsils. They suck. *debating on whether or not to take an extra excedrin*

But despite everything, I'm cheery today. Mostly because of various friends I talked to yesterday and today. Just in a good mood which is fabulous cause it hasn't happened for quite some time now.

AC isn't even all that prevelant on my mind, which is fabulous, cause I'm tired of thinking about her and what she did to me. Erin isn't much on my mind either, which is also good, cause I'm really confused about all of that lately and just how much she believes AC over me.

Welp.... that's enough for now.

Hmm..... well..... it's been.... 3 hours....... since I took medicine...... sure it says only take two in 24 hours.... but man, the migraine is still heavily there... it was a really bad one..... just.... one more I think will be all right. Heck, once I took 5 in 4 hours and I'm still alive and well.

What Type of Villain are You?
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Find your Role-PlayingStereotype at mutedfaith.com.

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.
for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html

LOL... fun stuff.... meh, I don't think I'm borderline honestly. Yeah, I'm kinda paranoid, but then, at the moment, I have good reason to be. Yeah, I'm definately moderate schizotypal. Histrionic... a little.... but not all that much. Avoidant... lol, yes. Dependant.... umm.... I just feel the need to please.... I can get by without compliments. Obsessive-Compulsive.... lol, yes.

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

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Hooray!

For a new blog. I got tired of tripod, and tired of trying to hide my true thoughts. If I've given you this address, feel special, for I love and trust you deeply. If you've come upon it on your own... good luck... I'm kinda nuts.... and obsessive about... like... everything.... but I do have interesting thoughts now and then. Enjoy!